Settling In

I haven’t been on here much.  Life has been quite crazy recently but for the most part in good ways.  Brews & Jewels has been working away with anticipation of Big Love Fest that was supposed to happen on the 5th but ended up postponed due to the weather.  It was scheduled as a rain or shine event but the weather ended up being a little bit more than that with heavy rain and high winds called for so last-minute it was postponed with a date TBD.  Still waiting on that.  Sigh.  Also this Saturday is Appalachian Shakedown happening at Highland Brewing!  It is mostly a music and beer oriented festival with some local artists and I’m very excited to be one of them! The weather should be mid 70s and sunny.  Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Also keeping me busy is my feet becoming firmer in the small city I have grown to adore.  I’m in the process of buying a house and if everything goes well I should be a homeowner in a month or so.  It is very exciting and yes, if you know me, anxiety producing.  I’m doing this all on my own and I couldn’t be happier but yet I can’t help but worry if I am doing everything I should and at the right time.  According to my realtor I’m ahead of the game so I guess my worrying is paying off.

If you have been keeping up with me you know that I have been feeling unsettled in life and wanting to nest.  Having that desire to have a house, family, and I guess overall feel like what we grow up thinking where we should be in our late 30s.  (Ack!  How did I get to be 38?)

I don’t want to have children.  I had my child in high school and proudly put her up for adoption.  My genes are out there and I don’t feel a need to help the overpopulation of the world.  Plus I have limited patience with children.  They can be adorable but I am too selfish for my own.  I do enjoy my four legged kids, a dog and to cats.  I would like to add a significant other at some point but that needs to be the right person.  So right now I am happy to be forming a more permanent home for the furry ones and me.  A house that is all ours.

So I finally am feeling like I am putting my nest together and although it takes time and energy it is so exciting and worth it!  So keep your fingers crossed for me that the next month plays out like it should and I become a homeowner.  Oh and if you are in Asheville come to Highland Brewing on Saturday, drink a beer or two, listen to some awesome music and say hi!

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Life’s Surprises

I haven’t blogged in a few weeks.  Life has been a bit busy and crazy but in the best of ways.  Life has been treating me quite well recently and much of it seems to come suddenly and surprise me.  Right now I am so thankful to the universe for what is has given me.

It is all little things but yet all together it brings me inner joy and a sense of feeling like I am in the right place in my life.  I truly feel fortunate and know that life changes and I need to appreciate what I have now.

Tonight I am crafting and organizing for this Sunday’s festival, Big Love Fest.  The biggest event I will have been at so far vending with Brews & Jewels.  I also have another festival in two weeks at Highland Brewing Company, Appalachian Shakedown. Which they approached me and asked if I wanted to vend!  Considering I have several pieces featuring them the answer is of course a yes!

Besides my exciting crafting life I am now in the position to be able to get my own place, not just rent but own.  Of course I will have a mortgage but I can realistically afford my own place for myself and my four-legged family.

I feel like I have choices in my life right now and that I actually know what I want to choose.  I want to be here, in the city I love, with my furry family, spending time with my crafts and friends and enjoying the little things that add up and make life perfect.

I had a friend try hard to convince me to go out tonight but I chose to stay home.  I needed to work on my crafts and I wanted my gratefully eventful week to sink in.

Life is good.  Thank you universe.

Riding to My Nest

I have been a little unsettled recently.  I have mentioned before that I’m at a point where I want to nest after a few years of living in the moment and .  I’m working on making steps to feel a little bit more nested but right now my life is still in chaos.

Many of you know I suffer from anxiety so of course right now I’m having some issues with it.  I’m trying to step back and realize things can’t just happen, that there is a process.  I’m also trying to keep in mind that process can bring self discovery and lasting memories.

My nest will come.  Not all at once but in steps and I need to enjoy the ride along the way.  That is what life is all about.

Celebrate You

Yesterday I posted a password protected blog and if you want to read it message me and I will let you know the password.  In summary though I am working on a new stage of my life as I have spent the last few years figuring me.  I am pretty happy with me inside and now am working on the aspects of my life outside of my body and mind.

Today I am going to celebrate being me and not stress about the rest.  You should do the same for you.  Remember you always have to live with yourself so it is important to love and respect the you that you are.

You

Today I am going to let life flow along and celebrate being me.

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Happy Valentine’s!

It is the day known for love, red hearts, flowers, and candy.  The last few years I have not been looking forward to it having been single every February but this time I’m not.  I have a date out tonight with the most wonderful girl who has recently become part of my life and I’m finally excited about this cheesy commercialized day of romance.

So to spread the love here is a little bit from Justin Bieber.

Anxiety is Stealing My Body

Anyone who knows me well or regularly follows my blog is aware that I have anxiety issues.  I have dealt with on and off anxiety my whole adult life and have done a lot to work through it and keep it at a manageable level.

This week I have been having a hard time with it.  It has taken me a little by surprise because over the last few months my anxiety has been pretty minimal and considering it is winter and I do have a little bit of SAD (seasonal affective disorder) I had been fairly calm and in good spirits. Just a few small things this week and I feel like a big ball of anxiety.  It sucks.

I have been working on crafts and spending time with my poor pup whom got spayed on Friday.  I’m trying to concentrate on my breathing and get the anxiety back out of me.

So anxiety give me my body and mind back.  I would appreciate that.