It sucks right now that the 31 miles I rode today kicked my ass. Last November I rode 72 miles in one day, amazing how some time off the bike quickly affects one.
Life has been a little bit in the way with silly things like buying a house, family visiting, and traveling. Fortunately I am settling back down and finding time again to do the things I love on a regular basis (like blog!).
Hopefully by this November I will be back to having a set of strong legs and today’s ride will seem like a piece of cake. (yummm…..did someone say cake?)
It is Friday and it has been quite awhile since I have posted on one. I used to be adamant about posting on Friday as those mornings were regular blog mornings. Life has been just too busy, or maybe my priorities have shifted. Nonetheless, whatever it is, it is Friday and I’m blogging! I know you are so excited that you are about to pee your pants right now.
So anyway a little update into my world. Less than a week and I close on my new house! I’m truly excited! This will be the second time for me as a homeowner but the first as a single homeowner. Just me and my four legged family!
Other than the big move, 1 mile away as the crow flies I have been busy on some commissioned work with Brews & Jewels. Then spending the occasional moment catching up with friends over a beer or hanging out with Opal. Mostly packing and crafting though! Overall life is going quite well for me. I feel like I’m becoming a somewhat normal American with a steady job, soon to have a house , a dog and two cats. So, I don’t have more humans in my family but right now that is okay. That will come when the time is right.
Despite all of my fortune I have been feeling some pain for many friends. Several have been dealing with the forces of mother nature and evacuations from home, the death of a good friend, and health problems. It seems like the force of the universe has been quite unusual recently causing quite a bit of unrest around the world in so many ways. I feel very grateful that I seem to be escaping that right now. I have had my share before and I sure I will again so right now I’m happy to be me right now.
Since I’m feeling grateful today it seems appropriate to post some Grateful Dead. Here is one of my old faves from them.
I haven’t been on here much. Life has been quite crazy recently but for the most part in good ways. Brews & Jewels has been working away with anticipation of Big Love Fest that was supposed to happen on the 5th but ended up postponed due to the weather. It was scheduled as a rain or shine event but the weather ended up being a little bit more than that with heavy rain and high winds called for so last-minute it was postponed with a date TBD. Still waiting on that. Sigh. Also this Saturday is Appalachian Shakedown happening at Highland Brewing! It is mostly a music and beer oriented festival with some local artists and I’m very excited to be one of them! The weather should be mid 70s and sunny. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
Also keeping me busy is my feet becoming firmer in the small city I have grown to adore. I’m in the process of buying a house and if everything goes well I should be a homeowner in a month or so. It is very exciting and yes, if you know me, anxiety producing. I’m doing this all on my own and I couldn’t be happier but yet I can’t help but worry if I am doing everything I should and at the right time. According to my realtor I’m ahead of the game so I guess my worrying is paying off.
If you have been keeping up with me you know that I have been feeling unsettled in life and wanting to nest. Having that desire to have a house, family, and I guess overall feel like what we grow up thinking where we should be in our late 30s. (Ack! How did I get to be 38?)
I don’t want to have children. I had my child in high school and proudly put her up for adoption. My genes are out there and I don’t feel a need to help the overpopulation of the world. Plus I have limited patience with children. They can be adorable but I am too selfish for my own. I do enjoy my four legged kids, a dog and to cats. I would like to add a significant other at some point but that needs to be the right person. So right now I am happy to be forming a more permanent home for the furry ones and me. A house that is all ours.
So I finally am feeling like I am putting my nest together and although it takes time and energy it is so exciting and worth it! So keep your fingers crossed for me that the next month plays out like it should and I become a homeowner. Oh and if you are in Asheville come to Highland Brewing on Saturday, drink a beer or two, listen to some awesome music and say hi!
I have been a little unsettled recently. I have mentioned before that I’m at a point where I want to nest after a few years of living in the moment and . I’m working on making steps to feel a little bit more nested but right now my life is still in chaos.
Many of you know I suffer from anxiety so of course right now I’m having some issues with it. I’m trying to step back and realize things can’t just happen, that there is a process. I’m also trying to keep in mind that process can bring self discovery and lasting memories.
My nest will come. Not all at once but in steps and I need to enjoy the ride along the way. That is what life is all about.
Yesterday I posted a password protected blog and if you want to read it message me and I will let you know the password. In summary though I am working on a new stage of my life as I have spent the last few years figuring me. I am pretty happy with me inside and now am working on the aspects of my life outside of my body and mind.
Today I am going to celebrate being me and not stress about the rest. You should do the same for you. Remember you always have to live with yourself so it is important to love and respect the you that you are.
Today I am going to let life flow along and celebrate being me.
Anyone who knows me well or regularly follows my blog is aware that I have anxiety issues. I have dealt with on and off anxiety my whole adult life and have done a lot to work through it and keep it at a manageable level.
This week I have been having a hard time with it. It has taken me a little by surprise because over the last few months my anxiety has been pretty minimal and considering it is winter and I do have a little bit of SAD (seasonal affective disorder) I had been fairly calm and in good spirits. Just a few small things this week and I feel like a big ball of anxiety. It sucks.
I have been working on crafts and spending time with my poor pup whom got spayed on Friday. I’m trying to concentrate on my breathing and get the anxiety back out of me.
So anxiety give me my body and mind back. I would appreciate that.
Those pesky weathermen (and women) predicted that we were going to get snow yesterday. Nope no effing snow. Just a ton of cold cold rain after the four previous days of rain. Thankfully my friend, the sun, came out today to take away my woes of no snow.
It’s Friday and I’m getting ready to meet up with one of my best friends over a beer or two. I still want some snow but I’ll take a sunny weekend instead!