Category Archives: Life thoughts

2013: Up & Down

Like many others I spend the last few days of any year reflecting on it.  What I expected to happen, what did happen, was it a good year, did I grow, and everything in between.

I honestly had high hopes for 2013.  Overall I have found 13 to be a lucky number for me.  It was also my 13th year as a North Carolina resident so double 13 for me!  Had to be awesome right?!?

Yes and no.  It brought some awesome things to my life like the opportunity to become a homeowner, my first full year with the furry love of my life, a little bit of traveling, and wonderful friendships.

This year also brought serious family health issues, love and heartache, and battles with anxiety.

It is how life goes, up and down.  It wasn’t the year I expected but I did grow more and learn more about myself and those around me. Becoming a homeowner again was pretty momentous and I couldn’t be happier for that.

I hope 2014 is a little less of a roller coaster ride.  I would prefer a steady up but unfortunately with family health issues it isn’t starting on an up.  All I can do is take care of myself and those around me and know that what happens is.

So here is to the upcoming year and I hope 2013 has been a good one for you and that 2014 is even better!

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What Life Brings

It has been quite awhile since I posted. Life has been just a wee bit crazy busy. I am now officially a homeowner again as of June 20th. Wow!  I’m still kind of in disbelief.

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It is my second time as a homeowner, the first time was with an ex. That time it was a joint decision and everything wasn’t just up to me. This time it was just up to me. I bought the house all on my own accord with no one else to judge other than hearing  “I think it is an awesome place” from my realtor who is also a friend (and we looked at a few that he agreed was not an awesome place) and my friend/now old roommate whom drove by and looked at the outside.  That was it, otherwise just my little head and my gut saying this is it.

So here I am over 2 weeks into being a homeowner with no regrets. It is a small home, but all I need for my four-legged family and I. There is storage in the basement for my two-wheeled family and a nice yard for Opal and the cats to explore.  They seem to approve.

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I finally feel like I have part of the “American dream”, being a homeowner. It is rewarding as it gives me responsibility which I kind of thrive on. Having the lawn mowed and keeping the gutters clean are all on me. For awhile in my life I was happy to be a renter and not have that but I started to yearn for it again. Mostly because I can then landscape how I want and know that I am taking care of something that is mine.

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Other than buying a new (to me) home my parents are currently here visiting so I am being a tourist in my own town and coming up soon I am heading to my old state of Colorado and heading to my (yikes!) 20th high school reunion.

A lot going on for this summer already. I am really looking forward to settling back down and getting into a routine with the new place and having more time to craft and ride again.

Overall life has been bringing me good things and I cannot complain. Thank you, my lucky year, 2013!

Grateful Friday

It is Friday and it has been quite awhile since I have posted on one.  I used to be adamant about posting on Friday as those mornings were regular blog mornings.  Life has been just too busy, or maybe my priorities have shifted.  Nonetheless, whatever it is, it is Friday and I’m blogging!  I know you are so excited that you are about to pee your pants right now.

So anyway a little update into my world.  Less than a week and I close on my new house!  I’m truly excited!  This will be the second time for me as a homeowner but the first as a single homeowner.  Just me and my four legged family!

Other than the big move, 1 mile away as the crow flies I have been busy on some commissioned work with Brews & Jewels.  Then spending the occasional moment catching up with friends over a beer or hanging out with Opal.  Mostly packing and crafting though! Overall life is going quite well for me.  I feel like I’m becoming a somewhat normal American with a steady job, soon to have a house , a dog and two cats.  So, I don’t have more humans in my family but right now that is okay.  That will come when the time is right.

Despite all of my fortune I have been feeling some pain for many friends. Several have been dealing with the forces of mother nature and evacuations from home, the death of a good friend, and health problems.  It seems like the force of the universe has been quite unusual recently causing quite a bit of unrest around the world in so many ways. I feel very grateful that I seem to be escaping that right now. I have had my share before and I sure I will again so right now I’m happy to be me right now.

Since I’m feeling grateful today it seems appropriate to post some Grateful Dead.  Here is one of my old faves from them.

 

 

Settling In

I haven’t been on here much.  Life has been quite crazy recently but for the most part in good ways.  Brews & Jewels has been working away with anticipation of Big Love Fest that was supposed to happen on the 5th but ended up postponed due to the weather.  It was scheduled as a rain or shine event but the weather ended up being a little bit more than that with heavy rain and high winds called for so last-minute it was postponed with a date TBD.  Still waiting on that.  Sigh.  Also this Saturday is Appalachian Shakedown happening at Highland Brewing!  It is mostly a music and beer oriented festival with some local artists and I’m very excited to be one of them! The weather should be mid 70s and sunny.  Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Also keeping me busy is my feet becoming firmer in the small city I have grown to adore.  I’m in the process of buying a house and if everything goes well I should be a homeowner in a month or so.  It is very exciting and yes, if you know me, anxiety producing.  I’m doing this all on my own and I couldn’t be happier but yet I can’t help but worry if I am doing everything I should and at the right time.  According to my realtor I’m ahead of the game so I guess my worrying is paying off.

If you have been keeping up with me you know that I have been feeling unsettled in life and wanting to nest.  Having that desire to have a house, family, and I guess overall feel like what we grow up thinking where we should be in our late 30s.  (Ack!  How did I get to be 38?)

I don’t want to have children.  I had my child in high school and proudly put her up for adoption.  My genes are out there and I don’t feel a need to help the overpopulation of the world.  Plus I have limited patience with children.  They can be adorable but I am too selfish for my own.  I do enjoy my four legged kids, a dog and to cats.  I would like to add a significant other at some point but that needs to be the right person.  So right now I am happy to be forming a more permanent home for the furry ones and me.  A house that is all ours.

So I finally am feeling like I am putting my nest together and although it takes time and energy it is so exciting and worth it!  So keep your fingers crossed for me that the next month plays out like it should and I become a homeowner.  Oh and if you are in Asheville come to Highland Brewing on Saturday, drink a beer or two, listen to some awesome music and say hi!

Life’s Surprises

I haven’t blogged in a few weeks.  Life has been a bit busy and crazy but in the best of ways.  Life has been treating me quite well recently and much of it seems to come suddenly and surprise me.  Right now I am so thankful to the universe for what is has given me.

It is all little things but yet all together it brings me inner joy and a sense of feeling like I am in the right place in my life.  I truly feel fortunate and know that life changes and I need to appreciate what I have now.

Tonight I am crafting and organizing for this Sunday’s festival, Big Love Fest.  The biggest event I will have been at so far vending with Brews & Jewels.  I also have another festival in two weeks at Highland Brewing Company, Appalachian Shakedown. Which they approached me and asked if I wanted to vend!  Considering I have several pieces featuring them the answer is of course a yes!

Besides my exciting crafting life I am now in the position to be able to get my own place, not just rent but own.  Of course I will have a mortgage but I can realistically afford my own place for myself and my four-legged family.

I feel like I have choices in my life right now and that I actually know what I want to choose.  I want to be here, in the city I love, with my furry family, spending time with my crafts and friends and enjoying the little things that add up and make life perfect.

I had a friend try hard to convince me to go out tonight but I chose to stay home.  I needed to work on my crafts and I wanted my gratefully eventful week to sink in.

Life is good.  Thank you universe.

Riding to My Nest

I have been a little unsettled recently.  I have mentioned before that I’m at a point where I want to nest after a few years of living in the moment and .  I’m working on making steps to feel a little bit more nested but right now my life is still in chaos.

Many of you know I suffer from anxiety so of course right now I’m having some issues with it.  I’m trying to step back and realize things can’t just happen, that there is a process.  I’m also trying to keep in mind that process can bring self discovery and lasting memories.

My nest will come.  Not all at once but in steps and I need to enjoy the ride along the way.  That is what life is all about.

Celebrate You

Yesterday I posted a password protected blog and if you want to read it message me and I will let you know the password.  In summary though I am working on a new stage of my life as I have spent the last few years figuring me.  I am pretty happy with me inside and now am working on the aspects of my life outside of my body and mind.

Today I am going to celebrate being me and not stress about the rest.  You should do the same for you.  Remember you always have to live with yourself so it is important to love and respect the you that you are.

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Today I am going to let life flow along and celebrate being me.